1998; Khatta and Great!

1998 is a year that will forever be etched in my memory.

It was when I finally took off the rose-tinted glasses I was hitherto so accustomed to wearing. It was when I was smacked in the face with the bitter truth that ‘Happily Ever Afters’ have a higher likelihood of appearing in the last line of fairy tales than in the scary tale that is life!๐Ÿ˜…

Unforgettable it was, for my soulmate was shoved headlong into the very pits of hell! And I could do nothing, just helplessly watch, all the while feeling my soul get slashed and shredded to a million fragments.๐Ÿ˜ฅ

It’s a rather childish notion that a soulmate= a romantic/life partner. ๐Ÿ™„ย Theย two terms are just about as similar as chalk is to cheese!

Loosely defined, a soulmate is one who’s cut from the same cloth as you are. Someone who compliments you, not necessarily someone who completes you. Someone who stirs the very core of your being.

It could be a friend or your dog or teacher or a parent or even, an uncle! The possibilities are endless!!!

Anyhoo, so here I was, all morose and crestfallen, right through the first half of the year. And then, words that have never been truer were sung! Lyrics that touched whatever was left of my ravaged soul, a phenomenal composition that tugged at the strings of my despondent heart and whispered through the fog enveloping my listless mind.

Who can forget the much-understated ‘Aye Ajnabi‘ from Dil Se? While the effervescent Chhaiyaan Chhaiyaan, the sensuous Satrangi Re and the bubbly Jiya Jaleย took the whole world by storm, it was the divine Aye Ajnabi that managed to calm the storm brewing in my world. Never has a song caught me so off-guard, as if taking to me directly! NEVER EVER!!!

Aye Ajnabi Tu Bhi Kabhi Aawaaz De Kahin Se
Aye Ajnabi Tu Bhi Kabhi Aawaaz De Kahin Se
Main Yahan Tukdon Mein Jee Raha Hoon
Main Yahan Tukdon Mein Jee Raha Hoon
Tu Kahin Tukdone Mein Jeen Rahi Hai
Aye Ajnabi Tu Bhi Kabhi Aawaaz De Kahin Se

Tu To Nahin Hai Lekin Teri Muskurahatein Hain
Chehra Nahin Hai Par Teri Aahatein Hain
Tu Hai Kahan Kahan Hai
Tera Nishaan Kahan Hai
Mera Jahan Kahan Hai
Main Adhoora Tu Adhoori Jee Rahein Hain

There have been very few occasions on which SRK has redeemed himself in my eyes and Dil Se was one such film where he didn’t disappoint. Ditto for Manisha. She’s ”acted’ in so many beautiful films but she lived and breathed ‘Dil Se’ and, for me, the two will always be synonymous.

Dil Se was a doomed lovestory (brilliant, yet not the conventional happily-ever-after) and hence it couldn’t do very much to dispel the pall of gloom hanging over me.

But then, I heard this and how I wished it had hit the jukebox earlier!๐Ÿ˜‰

Jab kisiki taraf dil jhukane lage
 Baat aakar juba tak rukane lage
 Aankho aankho me ikraar hone lage
 ....................................
 
 Chahane jab lage dil kisee kee khushee
 Dillagee yeh nahee yeh hai dil kee lagee๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜
 Aandhiyo ko dabane se kya fayda
 Pyaar dil me chhupane se kya fayda๐Ÿคท

This lovely, soulful tune from Pyaar To Hona Hi Tha worked like a charm to reinstill my fledgling faith in love. Even if it is of the unrequited kind!

And that’s when I made my peace with life! And realized, that sometimes, the intangible/ the unsaid is so much more fulfilling than it getting fleshed out and becoming reality. Ponder on that while I get back with some more pearls of wisdom. ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰

 

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